Hello everyone,
Hope this finds you well. I'm doing okay. Just a little stressed and feel like I am constantly going. I feel like I have had no "me" time since my husband left a month ago. I have thought about quitting school and focusing on those things around me at the moment, but I only have 4 more classes after this term. I have so much to think about and not enough time in the day it feels like.
The exercise that I did was the integral assessment in Chapter 11 of Dacher's book. I would have to say that the source of difficulty for me is my psychospiritual. I am having a hard time since my husband left. This is his 3rd tour and I seem to be struggling more this time then I did the first couple of time he left. My emotions are all a mess, I feel like I have so much to do and not enough time to do it, and I feel like I am not doing what I need to do in order to keep things going smoothly. My fuse is shorter and I am more on edge these days. I have had to stop going to church on Wednesdays because I have class. My whole world seems to be turned upside down these days. Sometimes I feel like I should just turn the world off and be by myself for a while.
The most essential thing for me right now is to get back to "me." I need to find myself again and find out what makes me tick again but I am having a hard time with that. I'm not sure what I can do to get back to my authentic self. Some days I feel like I got it and other days I feel lost as a goose. Any suggestions would be great.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. Hope everyone has a great day.
Wendy
Wow Wendy thanks for your openness in your post. I must say it is hard for someone to open up to complete strangers and let them into their personal lives. I do understand your feeling of not having enough time in the day and missing a loved one. A word of statement of advise is that no matter what the world my throw at you, hold onto the positive memories. Keep positive for anything you may do and focus on the positive things that you and your husband do when he is around. If you believe in prayer I would suggest that you take time to ask in your prayer for peace and humbleness in the mind and environment. That is something that has helped me to deal with the lost of my mother.
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